Let it SnowDecember 13, 2010 at 5:02 am | Posted in Giggles, Lollipop | 13 Comments
Tags: Anxiety, Challenges, Children, Curiosity, Motherhood, Snow, Winter, Wonder, Worry
It snowed today. That’s rare for us.
The slick sleet turned to fat, fluffy flakes as we were in the car. I turned the defrost up and the radio down. From the backseat, Giggles asked, “What’s that, Mom? What’s that?” It snowed last year, too, but he was too little to remember. Lollipop answered him. “It’s snow! The clouds are raining snow!”
And then came the questions. How do the clouds make snow? Why is snow white? Why isn’t rain white? Where does the rain go when it snows? Will there be a rainbow? Can airplanes fly in the snow? Can birds? And on and on.
I answered absentmindedly, my brain focused more on the wet roads, the icy patches that might be there, the cars around me that didn’t have their lights on. I worried. I drove slowly. I ignored the pure wonder coming from the seats behind me. I just wanted to get there. Safely.
And, thankfully, we did. The snow stayed on the ground all afternoon, just a sprinkling, like powdered sugar on a shortbread cookie. When dusk fell, the kids watched from the windows as a doe came to nose through it for the corn their grandfather had put out. At bedtime, they pointed out the flakes in the illustrations of their story.
All day, they marveled. They made connections; they asked questions; they stood quietly and let it snow.
All day, I kept coming back to the car ride. To their wonder. And my fear.
Isn’t that the way of it, with snow and mothering? Somehow, once-wonderful things become accidents waiting to happen. Curiosity transforms into concern. The instinct to protect overrules the instinct to explore.
How did that happen? And when will I remember to stand quietly and just let it snow?
What are your children in awe of this season? How do you balance their wonder and your worry? How much snow did you get this weekend??